pe-ra-sa-an.

hey! Hari ini ada pelajaran agama, and Mr.Bob tells me that im too much using feelin for handle my day. it's too bad. but i feel like this is me. im using feelin cause i know that if i dont use it, i'll lose my mind. yeaaaah dont know what to do now, so what should i do? errr.. OKAY! im tryin to not using feelin too much. but, what am i goin to do?! i dont know. and u know what?!?!?!? yesterday erick just told me that he doesnt like the new me. hmmm okaaaaay. and i dont want to sharing my sotry wif anybodyelse cause i know it's too dangerous. nyemnyemnyem. this is for today. thoodaaa!

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Melania Stella (@stelloow)

kira-kira ada kesempatan kedua ga sih? sometimes i miss my ex. don't know why. am i love him? err aku gatau. aku bingung. bantuin aku:( i feel like i'm the only girl who needs love rite now. aku gatau kenapa mesti begini. yang jelas sekarang yang aku pikirin itu cuman dia. cuman dia. cuman dia. aku pengen nulis namanya tapi gak mungkin lah ya. i dont wanna lose my chance to make my dreams come true..

#nowplaying when you love someone -endahnrhesa.  

hey guys! guess who......
yap. here i am. Melania Stella is back!
i know that u all missing me:') hahahaha i miss u too.
err i need someone to make me feel better. i want to tell somebody that i need him and he's mine. help me. i still remembered 2 months ago. my ex........ he hold me when i'm cry. he cheer me pu when i'm sad, and he company me when i need a friend. i just can't let my feelings go. i still miss him. but now he has a new gf. yaaaaah that's fine. i'll make everything's goin back like the old times. i need someone:)

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Melania Stella (@stelloow)

haiaiaiaiaiai!
hari ini aku manjain dirikuuuu:3 facial tadi siang hahahha. bosen parah coy. hari senen besok udah uts. yaudah deh hari ini mesti belajar yang rajiiiiiiiiin. eh eh eh eh. aku tadi kan sempet buka twitternya mantan, terus aku biasa ajaa:) dan sekarang aku gatau kenapa berasa gamau punya pacar. aku seneng sendirian. tapi ya aku berdoa sama Tuhan Yesus supaya aku tetep deket sama jodoh aku itu. entah kapan, entah siapa, dia pasti orang yang selalu bikin aku nyaman. aku pengen deh mimpi kayak biasanya lagi. kayak waktu aku dulu sama markus. dia selalu main dimimpi aku.  \
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Hai fwienddds!:)

udah berapa hari ya aku ga curhat? hmm let's see......TENOTTT!!!! aku lupa. hehehehe it's not a big deal. aku mau ceritaaaaaaaaaaa. aku suka sama seseorang. aku suka sama dia udah lama sih, kita 1 sekolah. dia lucu, gokil gituuu. tapi aku tau kalo dia suka sama temen se-gengnya. aku deket kok sama dia. sering smsan jugaaaa. tapi ya gitu...selalu aja aku yang sms duluan:( katanya Pak Bob "sekarang udah ga kayak dulu lagi, cewe boleh kok nembak cowok" NAH! *JRENGJENGJENGGGG* aku jadi kepikiran teruuus. yah semoga aja sih dia sadar kalo aku suka sama dia. hmmm.........................gimana ya cara ngasih taunya. aku sering banget liat dia galau. aku pengen banget bisa deket sama dia. kita kenal sejak sd. tapi aku suka sama dia pas aku smp. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! gimana donggg?(: give me an adviceeeee:* thanks!

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kenapa judulnya shuffle?random? gatau juga. oke langsung to the point. i feel like.........i hv a girlfriend but she's pretending like she likes me, but i know she's not. pertama gue kenal sama dia, gue rasa dia cewe yang baik, seru, gokil, kocak. ternyata? SHE TELLS SOMEONE THAT SHE DOESN'T LIKE ME! gila gak sih?! jadi selama ini she is just pretending to be a good girl. err she is a jerk! everybody says ''clam down stel....." gue gak bisa gitu terus juga kali. capek. hem, okay. stop it. gue mau dia jadi temen yang baik. bukan jadi manusia introvert yang ternyata pura-pura suka jadi temen gue. gue mau ngomong sama dia kalo sikapnya ini ga bagus. tapi gimana caranyaaaaaaaaaaaaa?!?!?!?!???!?!?!?!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa jadi bingung kan gue mesti gimana lakuin ini semua. gue gamau pura-pura. gue gamau nutupin apapun dari temen baik gue. tapi dia begini. a-s-t-a-g-a.

sincerely, my heart.

:)

hey guys. it's over. me and chaska is over, now:) im all alone. and now im tryin to open my self for others. hmmm.. i like somebody his name is awe but i know that'syin to not all. he's a good guy. he has a swee smile and sweet smile come from his eyes. i love it so much. but idk why, when i ask him about something he won't answer. but when he ask me somethin, i am answering. err somethin bad happens. he won't love me. im not his type. and now, im tryin to be his dream girl.. but i know i can't. im done here. i will tryin to be my self again. and will never ever cry again. i'll always happy, smile and laughing every single second of my life.