The day I realized

This is the day

The day that make me forget about 

How to love

How to let go

How to understand

About love

The day that makes me realize how easily

We could like someone

Only by touching their personality 

I miss the feeling

Of having someone by my side 

The feeling of comfortable 

Someone who hugs your heart, tightly

Makes you have no worries at all

The feeling of being respected 

By someone you barely knew

But easily hug your heart tightly

You were there when i was ready 

And now I won't let go

I want you to stay

Stay with me

Until the end of this journey 

And i want this journey to be adventurous 

While i am walking through this journey with you

It Is When You Can Be Your Best

She tried her best to open up

Not hiding anything for herself

Giving her best and honesty with no lies

Not even one strain of hair

But reality is harder that she has ever thought

She hardly trust anyone and her believes has already gone

With the wind and flows

Cry over everything might be her stupidest guilty pleasure

But she enjoys it

Being vulnerable inside 

But strong and independent outside

Your Ability of Letting Go of things or people that no need to be hold back

You are able to be nice, dear.

But somehow

People are gonna walk away

Walk away from your heart and try not to hold them back

Try to let go of them

Don't let them make you crave about love

Let them see how strong you are

Even when they are not around anymore

Even when you are not holding them in your hearts anymore

Try to be wise

Not to mention about loneliness

But it is about how you can handle yourself 

With no regrets of people that walks away

Kabar

Hai, apa kabarmu? apa kau baik-baik saja? kau sehat? kuharap begitu. Tidak, aku tidak apa-apa. Aku hanya merindukanmu. Tidak lebih. Hanya ingin menatap matamu yang berwarna coklat muda itu dan tersenyum padamu setiap saat. entahlah. Aku hanya menikmati saat-saat aku bersamamu. Jika aku memiliki remote yang bisa mengontrol waktu, mungkin aku akan membekukan saat-saat aku dan kamu saling menatap mata satu sama lain. Itu saja, hanya itu.

My Prayers

i closed my eyes and laid down my knees

i put my hands together and kept myself in silent

took a deep breath and done it one more time

i began to cry and this is what i said

"God, i love you

thank you for your blessing

thank you for the life you gave me

oh, God, i wanna tell you something

i know that you already knew about him

i just can't stand to have no feelings for him

i see you in him, God

i still don't understand why you put us together now

we're still young

we're silly

but then i just realize that you are the one who sent him for me

is he the answer to all my prayers?

or he is just another man that walks into my life and will teach me a lesson

oh God, no, i am not complaining, but i'm curious

i want to know God

please, let me know."

Miss Understanding

i opened my eyes and i couldn't find you anywhere
oh well, it was only a dream that i met you

i left my room and took a shower
i tried to eat my breakfast but i missed you
and all of our conversations

i met you at the very bad timing
it was all my fault
to let you in to my life

it was a sunny day when i hear your voice over the phone
you took me by surprise
i never thought that you would be that nice
i never thought

you weren't there when i waited for you
you weren't there when i needed you
i got mad at you
i got upset at you

i got myself attached to movies
tried to let go of thoughts about you
and when i watched those movies
it reminded me of you

right now, i am still wishing that you are here
making a day off to meet me
just to see me
but i guess.. you just do not care at all.

Puisi Hatiku - Poetry of My Heart

aku ingin mengungkapkan perasaan dalam hatiku
menuliskan perasaan yang tidak bisa ku katakan dengan bibirku
menorehkan macam-macam perasaan ada di dalam jiwaku
menuliskan isi hatiku

kejujuran bukanlah hal yang mudah untuk diungkapkan
namun pikiran dan hatiku lelah
lelah akan hal yang membuat otak dan hatiku terus bertengkar
mengungkapkan kenyataan yang pernah terjadi dalam hidupku

menatap wajahmu untuk pertama kalinya
mendengar suaramu untuk pertama kalinya
lalu aku membayangkan saat ini
tidak mengetahui bahwa kau menjadi orang yang penting bagiku

membiarkan semua alunan cerita berlangsung
pertemuan di malam itu memang bukan hal yang biasa
pertemuan yang membuatku yakin akan sesuatu yang kuragukan
membuatku yakin akan arti...

tidak, belum waktunya aku mengatakan ini
belum saatnya, belum waktunya

tahukah kau?
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perasaan kesal, marah, emosi, bahagia, tersenyum, semua bercampur aduk
perasaan seperti ini sudah lama tidak aku rasakan.

aku hanya ingin mengutarakan perasaanku
perasaan bahagia yang aku rasakan saat kau menghubungiku
kau memang berbeda
aku harap kau adalah jawaban dari doaku selama ini

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